dum de dum :)

Chillin' out maxin' relaxin' all cool
And all shootin some b-ball outside of the school

Nah i kid. Just playing some skyrim taking some screenshots of my amazing graphics mod that makes it look cooler than crysis! 

and then ill call siobhan back soon :D Can't wait <3

A fresh start!

Okay from no on I want to be a nice person, And I want to make her feel like she is the most amazing girl in the world because she really is! As of now I am a different person.

From now on I am going to try my hardest to be the best boyfriend in the world! because she deserves that :)

Why?

I can't understand what is going on in my head. I left her again because i felt unhappy. But as soon as i think right i have done the right thing. I realize i still fucking love her and i hate myself for it. because now if i say anything about it it'll just look like I'm fucking her feelings about. there's something wrong with me. I wish i could un do all this and just be happy with her from the beginning.

What would it take for a fresh start?

Mission!

I cycled  a mile home, in pitch black, Pissed as a drunk rat & mashed on my medication... well that sobered me up ahaaha. was a mission and a half to see where i was going though!

Ooooh i got an interview!

I got a job interview which i will get :) Rather confident! But that will keep me going until i either get a job with the police or Enercon! So either way things are looking a lot better now :D

My baby :)

I honestly love her more than life it'self! She is so beautiful :) 

I really don't know what I'd do if this girl never came into my life, Ever since i met her 3 years ago even before we got together I was crazy about her, and always used to look over to her and smile and she'd smile back at me. then we became the bestest friends and liked each other for way over a year and just didn't really tell each other, Stuff happened when we were drunk but we never realized we liked each other that way for a long time! Then just one day after a few drunken truths came out we decided to see each other and i stayed at hers and we had the most amazing time! Then we got together and honestly i would say that is the best day of my life, she really completes me. If i ever lost this girl i would just never replace that empty feeling that would be left behind. I wish i could be good enough for her.

Men don't cry.

I swear to god nothing ever upsets me, and nothing ever scares me. But as soon as there is a problem with me and my girlfriend I just fucking tear up like a little baby... I thought she was honestly going to leave me for good earlier and i just cried like a little girl.

What the fuck.